Monday, February 28, 2005
One word. Relief. Weekend zoomed by without any mention of the much dreaded talk about oral loving. He didn't try to make any moves either. So obviously I tried not to trigger it off. Perhaps he's come round to it. Everything was normal or seemingly normal. Or perhaps he's hoping to give me sometime to come round to his idea. Well, at this point, I am still not inclined toward that prospect.
But his libido seemed to be on a crazy high over the weekend and subsided a little only last night. I wonder if the sudden peak in libido suggests anything. Was the last week a particularly stressful week for him? Not that I know of, unless it pertains to the dreadful talk. Then again, I was the one who seemed more uncomfortable of the two of us. Could be his work. Or maybe not. He's not one to let work upset him easily. He didn't seem upset, but just seemed really tired and stressed out. And we didn't really talk alot. He seemed too tired and preoccupied to want to. And I was happy not to talk, lest the conversation ventured into my uncomfortable territory. It was just a lot of sex, more than usual. Was almost a little too much, but frankly speaking, I don't really mind, so long as no oral is involved. I may be oversensitive, but I seemed to get this distinct impression, in between and during sessions, that he's somewhat unhappy with me. I don't know if angry is the right word. But yeah, sometimes even angry. I might be over-reading it, but he seemed more forceful and less passionate and gentle. I didn't sense tenderness in his caresses or his kisses. I can't really put a finger to it. Let's hope it's paranoia.
Do guys suffer (well I don't think he's exactly sufferring per se; better word should be 'experience') from such swings in libido too? The few times this happened, things were pretty passionate. But this time, passion seemed to be lacking. It's more of anger, I don't know.
I think it should be fine. He called in the afternoon and I didn't detect anything out of the ordinary.
But his libido seemed to be on a crazy high over the weekend and subsided a little only last night. I wonder if the sudden peak in libido suggests anything. Was the last week a particularly stressful week for him? Not that I know of, unless it pertains to the dreadful talk. Then again, I was the one who seemed more uncomfortable of the two of us. Could be his work. Or maybe not. He's not one to let work upset him easily. He didn't seem upset, but just seemed really tired and stressed out. And we didn't really talk alot. He seemed too tired and preoccupied to want to. And I was happy not to talk, lest the conversation ventured into my uncomfortable territory. It was just a lot of sex, more than usual. Was almost a little too much, but frankly speaking, I don't really mind, so long as no oral is involved. I may be oversensitive, but I seemed to get this distinct impression, in between and during sessions, that he's somewhat unhappy with me. I don't know if angry is the right word. But yeah, sometimes even angry. I might be over-reading it, but he seemed more forceful and less passionate and gentle. I didn't sense tenderness in his caresses or his kisses. I can't really put a finger to it. Let's hope it's paranoia.
Do guys suffer (well I don't think he's exactly sufferring per se; better word should be 'experience') from such swings in libido too? The few times this happened, things were pretty passionate. But this time, passion seemed to be lacking. It's more of anger, I don't know.
I think it should be fine. He called in the afternoon and I didn't detect anything out of the ordinary.
# posted by Oddball @ 4:59 AM 
