Friday, July 08, 2005
G sent me a belated present (though late, but the thought counts a lot) by air mail. Thank you, dear.
It's a CD. An italian- american sort of album by this Italian singer, Patrizio Buanne. A charmer with a very strong nice voice. With a note (it's actually too long to be a note, but too short to be considered a letter; I like that it was very personal.) that read, 'Mich, happy 26th. I knew you would love this CD when I first heard it. strong masculine romantic vocals. very romantic, perfect for the hopeless romantic goofball that you are .... I dedicate 'Il Mondo' and 'Amore Scusami' to you. And I know you have always liked 'Parla Piu Piano'. Have a wonderful sweet 26th, sweetheart.'
It's a very thoughtful gift. I don't exactly know how to describe how I felt when I received it and also what I still feel now even. It's a little happiness, a little wistfulness, a little sadness, a sense of loss, a tinge of regret. I feel like crying, but I feel like smiling too. I feel like calling G right away. I feel like booking myself on the next flight to Seattle where he is (turned out he's back at the seattle office, and not the LA one) and showing up at his door. I feel like hugging him really tight. I wish I could turn back the clock.
I so love this CD, but every single track in that album reminds me of him. And when I heard Il Mondo and Amore Scusami, the lyrics made me do a double take and I cried. What exactly is he trying to say? Or am I reading too much into it. He quoted part of the lyrics from both in his note, specifically, -
Stay beside me, stay beside me
Say you'll never leave me
How I love you, how I love you
How I need you - please, believe me
In your arms I found your heaven
And your lips have done their part
and...
My love, forgive me
I didn't mean to have it end like this
I didn't mean to have you fall in love
In love with me
My love, please kiss me
Arrivederci amore, kiss me
Remember when we part, you'll have my heart
I love you so
How to tell you of my heartache
How to tell you I'm not free
How can I bear to see your heart break
To see your heart break over me?
Totally heart-wrenching. He knows how to make me cry. Sweet jerk.
I feel like such a bastard myself. I go on preaching about an exclusive relationship with Nic, and how I expect him to treat the relationship with the respect it deserves, we both deserve. Isn't it hypocritical to be pining for an ex-bf like this?
He left his contact details. Is that an indication that he wants to re-establish contact? I would love to remain just friends with G even. But I don't know how he feels about that.
It's a CD. An italian- american sort of album by this Italian singer, Patrizio Buanne. A charmer with a very strong nice voice. With a note (it's actually too long to be a note, but too short to be considered a letter; I like that it was very personal.) that read, 'Mich, happy 26th. I knew you would love this CD when I first heard it. strong masculine romantic vocals. very romantic, perfect for the hopeless romantic goofball that you are .... I dedicate 'Il Mondo' and 'Amore Scusami' to you. And I know you have always liked 'Parla Piu Piano'. Have a wonderful sweet 26th, sweetheart.'
It's a very thoughtful gift. I don't exactly know how to describe how I felt when I received it and also what I still feel now even. It's a little happiness, a little wistfulness, a little sadness, a sense of loss, a tinge of regret. I feel like crying, but I feel like smiling too. I feel like calling G right away. I feel like booking myself on the next flight to Seattle where he is (turned out he's back at the seattle office, and not the LA one) and showing up at his door. I feel like hugging him really tight. I wish I could turn back the clock.
I so love this CD, but every single track in that album reminds me of him. And when I heard Il Mondo and Amore Scusami, the lyrics made me do a double take and I cried. What exactly is he trying to say? Or am I reading too much into it. He quoted part of the lyrics from both in his note, specifically, -
Stay beside me, stay beside me
Say you'll never leave me
How I love you, how I love you
How I need you - please, believe me
In your arms I found your heaven
And your lips have done their part
and...
My love, forgive me
I didn't mean to have it end like this
I didn't mean to have you fall in love
In love with me
My love, please kiss me
Arrivederci amore, kiss me
Remember when we part, you'll have my heart
I love you so
How to tell you of my heartache
How to tell you I'm not free
How can I bear to see your heart break
To see your heart break over me?
Totally heart-wrenching. He knows how to make me cry. Sweet jerk.
I feel like such a bastard myself. I go on preaching about an exclusive relationship with Nic, and how I expect him to treat the relationship with the respect it deserves, we both deserve. Isn't it hypocritical to be pining for an ex-bf like this?
He left his contact details. Is that an indication that he wants to re-establish contact? I would love to remain just friends with G even. But I don't know how he feels about that.
# posted by Oddball @ 1:15 PM 
