Watch me spew poison...Hell knows no fury

I got greedy. I wanted more. How much more? Much more than what we agreed on at the outset. Apparently a lot more than he was able to give. He said yes then he changed his mind. He said he couldn't afterall. Couldn't or wouldn't? Really, on hindsight, it doesn't really matter, does it? What does it matter? It shouldn't even have mattered then. And I lost him. If I could do things differently, I would never have pressured him into things. G is capable of committment. He is, there is no doubt about this in my books. Or rather, perhaps it depends on the way you define committment. But at least in my opinion, he is capable of committment, he is able to commit at the level I want him to, just not in the form or manner (ie marriage) I wanted. Why did I have to obsess over the form of our relationship as it appears to people outside of the relationship?

He said he really couldn't. He didn't want to drag this any longer than he should. And he didn't think I could or even should change my expectations of where we were heading. He couldn't give me what I wanted, so he chose to end it.

Please tell me, in no uncertain terms, what you are thinking of now? Don't make me guess. What you did sent lots of conflicting signals. Have you changed your mind regarding the marriage issue? Or did you expect that I might have shifted my position on it, and indeed I have. Frankly I don't care. I just want to make things work, if that's what you want. Form doesn't matter to me anymore. Or do you simply just want to remain friends? Tell me, so I can move on.