Thursday, July 14, 2005
I wrote G an email two days ago to thank him for the birthday gift. I couldn't muster enough guts to call him. I was scared hearing his voice might reduce me to a pool of tears. Besides, I didn't know how I could say what I wanna say without making things awkward.
So I figured writing him an email was the best way to go. I thanked him and told him I loved the present, and especially the two songs he dedicated to me. And in return, I dedicated Come Prima to him. For his birthday this year, I wanna sing Come Prima for him perhaps 'live', or perhaps on an audio tape. Regardless, I want him to hear me sing this for him. Even the phrases in Italian.
And yesterday, he called me. I had expected him to just reply to my mail and that would be just that. It was a pleasant surprise, and as always, my heart jumped a beat when I heard his voice. It was as though I was a little girl all over again, idolising an idol from afar. I love this feeling. I miss this feeling. That was how I felt a lot when G and I were together.
I asked him why he decided to dedicate Il Mondo and Amore Scusami to me.
G,' Why did you dedicate Come Prima to me then?'
Me, ' Cos it said exactly what I feel. Somewhat. You haven't answered my question.'
G, ' Cos I thought you would love them. I can see that the lyrics may be somewhat leading (thank god, he didn't say misleading), and I won't exactly say they aren't what I feel for you. You know I love you (my heart melted), always will (melted again). Omg that's the lyrics isn't it (Yes it is)? But I want you to be happy and I gotta say I am being absolutely truthful here when I tell you I can't be that person.
He said he wanted so much to still be a part of my life and for me to be part of his. But he was concerned I might take it the wrong way and he didn't want to complicate things, which was why he made such a swift exit and didn't really keep in touch. And he felt bad.
It wasn't easy for me to hear him say all this and my heart sank when I heard it. I was definitely disappointed. But at least he cleared a couple of things up for me.
G, ' I still hold you to your promise to sing Come Prima for me.'
Me, ' Of course.'
Of course, dear. You can always count on me to keep my promises. I always did. You were the one who didn't. Oh well.
So I figured writing him an email was the best way to go. I thanked him and told him I loved the present, and especially the two songs he dedicated to me. And in return, I dedicated Come Prima to him. For his birthday this year, I wanna sing Come Prima for him perhaps 'live', or perhaps on an audio tape. Regardless, I want him to hear me sing this for him. Even the phrases in Italian.
And yesterday, he called me. I had expected him to just reply to my mail and that would be just that. It was a pleasant surprise, and as always, my heart jumped a beat when I heard his voice. It was as though I was a little girl all over again, idolising an idol from afar. I love this feeling. I miss this feeling. That was how I felt a lot when G and I were together.
I asked him why he decided to dedicate Il Mondo and Amore Scusami to me.
G,' Why did you dedicate Come Prima to me then?'
Me, ' Cos it said exactly what I feel. Somewhat. You haven't answered my question.'
G, ' Cos I thought you would love them. I can see that the lyrics may be somewhat leading (thank god, he didn't say misleading), and I won't exactly say they aren't what I feel for you. You know I love you (my heart melted), always will (melted again). Omg that's the lyrics isn't it (Yes it is)? But I want you to be happy and I gotta say I am being absolutely truthful here when I tell you I can't be that person.
He said he wanted so much to still be a part of my life and for me to be part of his. But he was concerned I might take it the wrong way and he didn't want to complicate things, which was why he made such a swift exit and didn't really keep in touch. And he felt bad.
It wasn't easy for me to hear him say all this and my heart sank when I heard it. I was definitely disappointed. But at least he cleared a couple of things up for me.
G, ' I still hold you to your promise to sing Come Prima for me.'
Me, ' Of course.'
Of course, dear. You can always count on me to keep my promises. I always did. You were the one who didn't. Oh well.
# posted by Oddball @ 12:07 PM 
